Old Notes

Here is everywhere, you are everything and everywhere. Put no barrier between you and where you are, your journey has only begun. When the mind is enlightened the spirit is free and the body matters not. Those who seek oneness find all that they seek.

Words cannot express a thing in its fullness, at least not expediently. Speech cannot convey the spirit. Swayed by words one is lost. One cannot carry darkness on the Great Path. You cannot start the journey with darkness inside you.
You cannot walk the Great Path caring burden.
You must trust, you must believe.

Journal 2014/07/07

   This is why one should be concerned about the political standing of the place in which you spend money. Mearly because they will side with those that agree with them. Your politics should not end with the politicians but extend to the sources of their influence.

   One can talk all they want, but until one acts, truely, with what burdens their heart, the future will move forward with what it has been given.

Journal 2014/05/14

   I think I understand it a little better now. The earth's surface is difficult to measure because it's a little like a cracked hard boiled egg. Cooled plates of earth are pulled to the planet's center and along with the tides, they are pulled by the sun and moon. I would guess that it would be incredibly subtle.

I kinda want to work on an Enigma program I thought of during my time as a CTR. Expounding on the original Enigma using an input filter to change the outcome of your keystrokes. One filter level would be a specific arrangement of ASCII, and a filter for every possible arrangement. A different sequence of the filters for each user or use. Grouping of the filters would be in any number.

"Precise alignment of sun, moon and earth during total solar eclipse makes possible exact measurement of earth's surface." CDEGHIJKLMPQRSTVWXYZBUFONA 

Journal 2014/05/09

  Branding; I have failed to maintain any sort of branding for me or my life. I suppose regardless the matter I am a brand, just not self-defined.

   Repetition; because the more you encounter it the easier it is to remember it. And those times when it's void from your environment you have the need to plug that hole with what fits best. Honestly I should take this to heart. If I need to market myself or the company I keep. Though I doubt anybody really reads these things. I would assume most readers of blogs care about those material and emotional things that they can relate to. And only then because it's part of their environment or it used to be.

  Ubiquity; you really can have too much of a good thing. The simple counterbalance to that which is popular. The more something become ubiquitous, the more you feel crowed by that part of your environment. And essentially you will attempt to remove that which causes you discomfort. I suppose the only "obvious" exception would be love.

 Chunking; real world achievements. A perception of success which, in it's own rights, is actual success. Now that I think of it, this may actually be the best form of creating or breaking a habit. If one can modify the absorption of their environment they could essentially control the outcome of their destiny. Like finding the next niche on the cliff-face, a point of support to make the climb. If I were to continue this metaphor, I suppose one could also utilize "anchors" to prevent failing/falling.

"A black cat dropped soundlessly from a high wall, like a spoonful of dark treacle, and melted under a gate." - E. Lemarchand

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Journal 2014/05/02

  The move for MainFaucet, up to the second floor, took a bit longer than expected. The majority of it all was finished up around Wednesday, though everything started Monday. Today I feel pretty settled in.

  Unsettling enough is the population of spiders around here. After scouring Google search, I think I've eliminated the Brown Recluse and Hobo spiders. Doesn't stop me from feeling every little movement on my arm hairs. I wouldn't mind them so much if I had a guarantee that they would avoid transgressing my territory.

  On the lines of territory, the cubicles have been assembled so that there are more glass panels, to increase visibility through-out the workplace. The boss had issues with some of us using the work computers for non-work purposes. The only drawback I can foresee is the visibility of QuickBooks from the computer for Ruvati and Vantage Ideas. But I suppose if the boss doesn't care about it I shouldn't either.

  Due to all the hustle and bustle I have once again achieved setbacks to my work. Though gratefully I turned in all the employee hours before the weekend arrived. And I updated the calculation functions for the Ruvati attendance spreadsheet. I didn't have a calculation for break times. Though in the past I've never had to really worry about it. In any case I will compress all the function into one cell some other time.

  Tedious invoice updates. I have decided to forgo the standard daily procedures and focus only on updating invoices/purchase orders. Sadly there seems to be no way of syncing our system with the many, many vendor that we use to fulfill customer orders. I guess it's a good thing I know enough keyboard shortcuts. It feels weird to know that so many people here don't know many, or don't use them at all. Such is the harbinger of inefficiency.

  I like Everfree Radio, but I'm not the biggest fan of the Lunar Republic Takeover. The concept is good, I like some of the stories, but I'm not a fan of Heat Wave, the voice of NightmareMoon. Namely it feels awkward to hear actors preform a script they've never practiced or perhaps even read. I know it's just a casual fan radio show, but often enough it sounds like some of them are actually trying and at least one has temporarily given up. I've heard poor cohesion in podcast like this, it just ruins the magic.

  Alternatively, I kinda wanted the other programs to "interrupt" kinda like the Lunar Republic Takeover. I know it's weird to say, but I like a break from the music every now and then.

Another day done, the coming morn' is offered up to My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, and Space Dandy.

"Marriage is like twirling a baton, turning handsprings or eating with chopsticks, it looks so easy till you try it." Helen Rowland EDBCFGHIJMNOPQRUVWXYZSTALK

Journal 2014/04/24

  Currently reading Grave Peril, by Jim Butcher, not so bad. I like the story and the mythos used. The way he describe how magic and other mythical thing work, side a bit with my own. Enough so that it has influence my headcannon. Example, the words when casting a spell aren't exactly important. But the words are only important in helping to focus the mind. It's what that word represents when using it. For me this is why one would want to be sure of the right words before speaking. In as such, each letter is significant when you "spell" a word, each word is significant when spell a sentence. This my foundation for supporting Neuro-Linguistic Programming as a form of magic. I still need more study in the science.

  As another grand distraction during my free time, Prison Architect has updated the financial elements. Grants have become actual challenges/achievements to me now. Unfortunately I can't seem to complete the Inmate Nutrition grant. My prison hold more than 200 prisoners now, and every time I attempt to serve one poor meal for the day I get riots. The blood bath that ensues just makes me load the old saved game before changed the meal regimen.

  Mother showed up at work. Mostly to drop off an old VA letter and to catch up. After all the moving around I guess they need to focus and find a plan. I wonder if she works the same way I do? Keep doing what you know and let your environment force you path (path of least resistance).

  In any case, the letter was regarding the VA health Care and the Affordable Care Act dated October 2013.

"Your are enrolled in the VA health care system, which means you have health care coverage that meets the standards under the health care law." US Department of Veterans Affairs

  Not telling me too much I hadn't already assumed. It is the VA after all, why wouldn't they enroll me into a government mandated program? But then again they could have had an addendum that I would have to certify my enrollment by showing up at a local site.

"Let me tell you how it will be.
Here's one for you, nineteen for me.
Should five percent appear too small,
Be thankful I don't take it all."
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Journal 2014/04/22

  I should stay more focused, but I don't get enough free time at home now that I have a boyfriend. I don't have the time for much personal leisure when I'm home, and I really shouldn't neglect work any more than I already have. I unfortunately have introduced solving Sudoku and at least one Crypto-Quote as part of my daily actives. Fortunately each only takes about 5 min of my time. Though that does leave me with a feeling that I could repeat the process with little impact on my work. If I could just push through and get it all done. The problem is, it just never ends and I fear I will never catch up.
  At the very least my Fallout Inspired radio through Pandora gives me a little kick to shrug off the tedium of data entry. And if I was granted my peace to walk to work I would be able to listen to the daily news more often. Nice to listen to the latest news from Nightvale.

  Most of the time I feel hampered in this relationship. I would like to read from my phone in bed, but Ben has professed how much he detest cell phones anywhere near the bed. I don't know how a clock radio is so much better, but I guess I can see how a phone is a UHF omni-direction emitter. But to what extent? A mile at most. You should be more worried about how much radiation is bombarding you during public transportation, or rush hour traffic for that matter. In any case I side with the health concern that there are too many emissions, of so many variations, that are unnatural in our current environment.

Sign reportedly in a restaurant window: Don't stand there and be hungry! Come in and get all fed up. MNQRSUVWXYZPOTABLECDFGHIJK